My favourite thing Friday is something I can't touch or be with any more, but I think that I can safely say I that I think of her every day. I chose her because it would have been her 69th birthday today and in two weeks time she would have been gone for 20 years, which I find hard to believe, when did a blink and all that time pass. I have nearly been without her longer than I had her by my side. I this this was a Deb Ball she is probably about 17 or 18.
This last 6 months have seen me thinking of her more than usual though. I would have thought that after all these years I had put this grief behind me and then the sudden death of a mother comes up in our circle of friends and I have been surprised by the well of grief that bubbles up to the surface and it has the emotion has been very raw and I remember the despair of 20 years ago when I was 23.
Mum was always my best friend, we talked on the phone every day even though we still lived in the same house. My life has had two half's before 19 February 1991 and after. She has left a void that has never been replaced. Happy Birthday Mum.
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