04 February 2011

Favourite Things Friday


My favourite thing Friday is something I can't touch or be with any more, but I think that I can safely say I that I think of her every day.  I chose her because it would have been her 69th birthday today and in two weeks time she would have been gone for 20 years, which I find hard to believe, when did a blink and all that time pass.  I have nearly been without her longer than I had her by my side.  I this this was a Deb Ball she is probably about 17 or 18.

This last 6 months have seen me thinking of her more than usual though.  I would have thought that after all these years I had put this grief behind me and then the sudden death of a mother comes up in our circle of friends and I have been surprised by the well of grief that bubbles up to the surface and it has the emotion has been very raw and I remember the despair of 20 years ago when I was 23.

Mum was always my best friend, we talked on the phone every day even though we still lived in the same house.  My life has had two half's before 19 February 1991 and after.  She has left a void that has never been replaced.  Happy Birthday Mum.

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17 comments:

Lynda said...

So beautifully said Amanda - the photo is lovely. I feel exactly the same about my Dad.

Rustic Tarts said...

A lovely post Amanda and without knowing your mum, I'm sure she would have been so proud of you and all that you have accomplished.
It's a beautiful photo of her - they don't make dresses like that anymore!

Thea said...

Thanks Amanda. I appreciate your openness!

Marg said...

An heartfelt post Amanda, It is a really beautiful photo of your mother. It is good and nice that you remember your mum and her birthday for FTF.

Leanne said...

What a lovely post my friend. I am sure she would have been very proud of you if she had been here with you now.

Sue said...

What a beautiful photo ... your mum is just gorgeous and that dress. Lovely words Amanda ... you bought a few tears to my eyes. Im sure your mum would have been so proud of you and her gorgeous grandchildren. Very special memories ... I hope you hold onto them forever.
S

Janice said...

I feel exactly the same way. My mom has been gone for 15 years and her birthday is coming up. Your mother is beautiful and so are the memories you have shared with us.

Thanks for trusting us with your memories.

Seams Inspired said...

Absolutely beautiful, Amanda. Thanks for sharing your favourite and your heart today. What a gorgeous photo of your Mum. May her memory be eternal. (((HUGS)))

Kirsten's Cooking said...

This was really touching, Amanda. I'm so sorry for your loss - a mother is never replaced, I'm sure. I'm not surprised that the grief process has stages and to see someone else go through a loss inevitably brings it all back.

Your mother was beautiful.

Thanks for sharing her with us.

Barb H said...

The same as all the others, Amanda. I too feel the loss of my parents on a daily basis and sometimes--even after 50+ years, I shed tears for my dad who died when I was a child. I don't think we ever get over losing a parent, we just go on as best we can. Thank you for sharing.

Shay said...

This was a beautiful post Amanda. I can feel the bond you have with your Mum shining through.

I need to call my Mum and tell her that I love her.

Thank you for sharing something so obviously personal and important to you.

Logopaedchen/Kirsten said...

You brought tears to my eyes and I know exactly what you mean. My Dad died fairly young too, and I miss him a lot,especially on occasions like is birthday, x-mas or such.Thanks for sharing your memories.

Lorraine said...

Amanda.....what a beautiful photo of your Mum....thanks for sharing your thoughts.

Kate said...

Lovely picture of your mother. It's a beautiful way to remember her.

P. said...

I totally understand where you're coming from, Amanda. My mom would have been 74 last week and she's been in my thoughts lately too. Things just bubble up, as you say, now and then. Thanks for sharing a bit of your mom with us as your favorite thing. She was beautiful in that photo.

michelle said...

what a lovely tribute to a beautiful woman.

Sharon (Stitches on Mars) said...

Its a lovely post Amanda.

I feel the same way about my father...there's the me before he died and the one after. It was unexpected too. Its been almost 29 years now and I was 20 and pregnant with his first grandchild. Its also why I cannot celebrate Valentine's day even today.
Hugs, Sharon